That's pretty much what my life feels like right now. I'm broke. My car is broken. My boyfriend won't speak to me. I'm on the verge of tears all the time. And then I log onto facebook for the first time in weeks and have to read about fires, shootings, friends dying. How much can we take? Humans are so physically and emotionally fragile and it seems like so many people all over the world are being constantly pushed to the limits of what they can endure. It's heartbreaking.
Upon reflection I guess things aren't really as bad as they feel. The snow and cold just makes me so depressed and then things that are bad seem so awful. I do work full time, support myself in my own apartment, will be able to get my car fixed and am trying to show the boyfriend that I care about him and that he doesn't need to push me away. As far as the fires and shootings go, I have to accept things that I can't change.
One exciting piece of news. I am going to Florida for a week in April. I just have to pay $100 for my plane ticket and for my own food/drinks. My aunt is paying for the hotel and the rest of the flight. And while she and my sister are waiting in lines at disney world and all that jazz, this girl will be laying in the sun, drinking, and enjoying a whole week straight of not having to make pizza :)
Friday, January 8, 2010
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Car Air Fresheners and Mocassins
Those are two things that I like. Things have been really good and pretty bad lately. I'm getting by.
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Francesca = Car Owner
Woohoo! Bought my first car today and it's awesome! Did all the DMV business and all that jazz and have been enjoying how awesome it feels to have my own set of wheels. It was raining all day today so I didn't have a chance to take pictures or vacuum out the interior and clean like I want to but oh well. Also didn't have a chance to pop that top down yet but you know I will on the next sunny day, even if it is freezing out! Pictures soon I promise.
Spent the day doing the car stuff and then babysitting all evening. It was really nice to just relax for a good part of the day. On rainy days I'm all about the sweat pants and book and that's what I did for the 2 hours I was babysitting after the kids went to bed. I love babysitting for the family that I do; the kids are great. I fed them fish sticks and broccoli, we watched Mamma Mia, and then they all got ready for bed like little lambs. The baby didn't go right to sleep tonight, but I got him to sleep eventually. Then I chilled out on the couch and read, and was paid to do it, it's awesome.
Anyways, 9 hours of real work tomorrow, so I really need to get some sleep. I'm just so excited these past few days that sleep has been really hard. Hopefully a long, hard day's work of pizza slinging will tire me out so I can go to bed tomorrow night at a more reasonable time.
Also, first long(ish) excursion in my new car on Tuesday when I head up to Roch to go dress shopping (with Tiffany!)...yay! And I'm going to try to sell some clothes that are too big for me to Plato's Closet so I have money to buy a dress...yay :)
Spent the day doing the car stuff and then babysitting all evening. It was really nice to just relax for a good part of the day. On rainy days I'm all about the sweat pants and book and that's what I did for the 2 hours I was babysitting after the kids went to bed. I love babysitting for the family that I do; the kids are great. I fed them fish sticks and broccoli, we watched Mamma Mia, and then they all got ready for bed like little lambs. The baby didn't go right to sleep tonight, but I got him to sleep eventually. Then I chilled out on the couch and read, and was paid to do it, it's awesome.
Anyways, 9 hours of real work tomorrow, so I really need to get some sleep. I'm just so excited these past few days that sleep has been really hard. Hopefully a long, hard day's work of pizza slinging will tire me out so I can go to bed tomorrow night at a more reasonable time.
Also, first long(ish) excursion in my new car on Tuesday when I head up to Roch to go dress shopping (with Tiffany!)...yay! And I'm going to try to sell some clothes that are too big for me to Plato's Closet so I have money to buy a dress...yay :)
Friday, October 2, 2009
Excited!
I'm so excited! Tomorrow I am going to buy my first car! It's going to empty my bank account but this is what I've been working 35 hours a week burnin myself on hot pizza pans for! I will definitly post pictures of my baby soon. I'm just so excited!
Another exciting thing is that I was invited to go to a wedding for a friend of a friend next Friday and I'm excited because I love weddings! They are so beautiful and joyous. I am actually going to be the date of my good friend's fiance's brother. He is in the wedding party as a groomsman and he didn't have a date and my friend, Tiffany, the one I went to see Toby Keith with, asked me if I would go as his date so we can party at the reception :-) No, I really do love weddings though, so I am excited. It does mean that I have to go dress shopping in the next few days because I have nothing to wear to a wedding. However, who doesn't like to go shopping when they've recently lost almost 25 pounds?!
Yay life :)
Another exciting thing is that I was invited to go to a wedding for a friend of a friend next Friday and I'm excited because I love weddings! They are so beautiful and joyous. I am actually going to be the date of my good friend's fiance's brother. He is in the wedding party as a groomsman and he didn't have a date and my friend, Tiffany, the one I went to see Toby Keith with, asked me if I would go as his date so we can party at the reception :-) No, I really do love weddings though, so I am excited. It does mean that I have to go dress shopping in the next few days because I have nothing to wear to a wedding. However, who doesn't like to go shopping when they've recently lost almost 25 pounds?!
Yay life :)
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Desiderata
Maybe you have already heard of this wonderful piece of prose, but if you haven't here it is. Desiderata is Latin for 'desired things' and it is also the title of a prose poem attributed to Max Ehrmann. It is really wonderful so please take the time to read it.
Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Mo' Money, Mo' Problems
SO, I think I'm going to buy a car tomorrow...eeek! It's a used car, a '98 Seabring convertible. It's silver, in pretty good condition, got a lot of miles on it though. Anyways, it will legit empty my bank account to buy a car (and I think I'm getting it for about $2800) and I'm like "how am I going to pay for insurance when my bank account = $0?" It will be really nice to have my own car though, especially since I've been working SO much. 3 people quit where I work so my hours got majorly bumped up. This week I worked Mon, Wed, Thurs, Fri, Sat, and tomorrow (Sun) and it comes out to about 39 hours depending on how long I'm there tomorrow. So having my own car will make my life a lot easier as far as work goes. Plus I'll be able to slightly increase the frequency and duration of my trips to Brockport and LeRoy 'cause I won't be using a borrowed car (if I ever get more than a day off- and I only get Tuesdays off cause I have class and have to do my hw before that, but if I ever get a Sat off I'm driving to Brockport after work Friday night and not coming home til I have to go back to work again...lol). Although the cost of gas (and to some degree the amount of miles on the car) are prohibitive :(
Anyways, long run tomorrow and work so I gotta get to bed. Maybe I'll post pictures of the car if I buy it.
PS...I've lost about 24 pounds altogether so far...go me! :) Here's to the next 24!
Anyways, long run tomorrow and work so I gotta get to bed. Maybe I'll post pictures of the car if I buy it.
PS...I've lost about 24 pounds altogether so far...go me! :) Here's to the next 24!
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Thank You Heather
The title is in response to the very sweet and lovely comment that Heather left on my last post. Love you dear!
Ok, so I'm kind of getting into this whole running thing. I ran/walked about 4.5 miles today. I think the actually running was somewhere between 2 and 2.5 miles, so I'm pretty proud of myself. And I have been doing pretty well eating healthy even though I do work at a pizza place and it is very tempting to grab some food while I'm there. Other than that I'm finding it very easy to eat healthy. Speaking of work, my boss just had 2 people quit on her so she is bumping up my hours a bit. I'll be getting about 33 a week and I'm finally getting my own key so I can open and close by myself...exciting.
My accounting class is going pretty well. I still understand everything we are talking about so I feel like that's a good sign.
Not really anything interesting going on, my life is pretty plain right now but I'm doing ok :)
Oh, and I was just reading a post from the other day and I guess I never did update you on how I did on that accounting test but I will now. I got a 100 on it!!! Yay me!
Ok, so I'm kind of getting into this whole running thing. I ran/walked about 4.5 miles today. I think the actually running was somewhere between 2 and 2.5 miles, so I'm pretty proud of myself. And I have been doing pretty well eating healthy even though I do work at a pizza place and it is very tempting to grab some food while I'm there. Other than that I'm finding it very easy to eat healthy. Speaking of work, my boss just had 2 people quit on her so she is bumping up my hours a bit. I'll be getting about 33 a week and I'm finally getting my own key so I can open and close by myself...exciting.
My accounting class is going pretty well. I still understand everything we are talking about so I feel like that's a good sign.
Not really anything interesting going on, my life is pretty plain right now but I'm doing ok :)
Oh, and I was just reading a post from the other day and I guess I never did update you on how I did on that accounting test but I will now. I got a 100 on it!!! Yay me!
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