Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Life Is A Highway...

...and I'm gonna ride it...all night long. Sorry for how completely depressing my last post was. I was really not in a good place. Things are feeling a little better now. That lyric just popped into my head because I have to drive to Rochester tonight to pick Chris up at the airport and I'm worried that I will have to drive in the snow and be on the highway and all that. But then it kind of got me thinking, you know. I like the metaphor of life as a road. Sometimes its bumpy, sometimes you run out of gas, get a flat tire, car breaks down. It could be snowing or raining or sunny. But you just have to keep moving forward until you get where you're trying to go I guess. I just like it.

Friday, January 8, 2010

How Many Times Can I Break Til I Shatter?

That's pretty much what my life feels like right now. I'm broke. My car is broken. My boyfriend won't speak to me. I'm on the verge of tears all the time. And then I log onto facebook for the first time in weeks and have to read about fires, shootings, friends dying. How much can we take? Humans are so physically and emotionally fragile and it seems like so many people all over the world are being constantly pushed to the limits of what they can endure. It's heartbreaking.


Upon reflection I guess things aren't really as bad as they feel. The snow and cold just makes me so depressed and then things that are bad seem so awful. I do work full time, support myself in my own apartment, will be able to get my car fixed and am trying to show the boyfriend that I care about him and that he doesn't need to push me away. As far as the fires and shootings go, I have to accept things that I can't change.


One exciting piece of news. I am going to Florida for a week in April. I just have to pay $100 for my plane ticket and for my own food/drinks. My aunt is paying for the hotel and the rest of the flight. And while she and my sister are waiting in lines at disney world and all that jazz, this girl will be laying in the sun, drinking, and enjoying a whole week straight of not having to make pizza :)